Tuesday, September 11, 2007

"The Fam"

What a day to DWELL! Ugh. I could hardly STAND myself the last 2 days...I was weeping in the frozen foods at the grocery store... boo hooing while scrubbing floors...what is wrong with me people? I am unbearable to be around. I think with all that is going on the Guatemala, it is so hard to hear the "HUGE" *snicker snicker* problems that people are talking about with me the past 2 days. I know that no one else knows how hard this is unless you are actually IN it, but it is so difficult when someone is talking about something so minuscule (to me), and here I am thinking, "I wonder what is happening with elections in Guatemala. Is there violence? Is Mo safe? Will he come home when we think, or will they stop adoptions? What then?" Is anyone else in blogland with me this week? It is nice to not feel alone in this as I often do. I feel badly that I am so short with people right now, but the question, "what is wrong?" cannot be summed up in a sentence. They cannot help not knowing, so I feel awful being frustrated. It is not people, it is just life in general. I hope these photos will remind me that there is family here to take care of and be happy around. I need perspective. I love my Jeff and Alli. They are the best. I have a beautiful girl and a handsome hubby. I just needed to vent.


Alli and "Crabby Jill (me)" at the beginning of cheer. Go Jackets!
Jeff and Alli on photo day for cheer - Jeff coaches, hence the shirt

My Beauty - loving the blue and gold braces


4 comments:

Gail said...

Jill,
You are not crabby. You are going through a Guatemalan adoption. That is something different. You are not alone in your feelings and I guess you know that.
Hang in there.
Gail

Shannon said...

Girl, hang in there!!! You only have a few more steps to go!!!

I didn't realize our kiddos are only a week apart!! How cool?!?!

PS-It's ok to be crabby. Better to let it out then keep it in....

Rose said...

Oh man! I have been crying all morning. I feel the same way. Not really crabby just SAD!! I too, have a lot to be thankful for but just can't get past the whole "adoptions could be closing down" Jan 1st. Yuck.

jajbs said...

Crying? That is ALL I do these days! My daughter is in the hogar mentioned in the PRense Libre article on Labor day, along with MY case being specifically named. I am in constant thought for her safety. Hang in there- It HAS to end happily at some point!


Amanda