This is tougher than I thought... and I thought that I was tougher than this....
Tips for the best relationships
5 months ago
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Happy Birthday, Baby
Happy Birthday, Mo. 6 months and one day old... too much sadness to think of all that I missed..this is much tougher than I thought...I truly did not realize that 6 months would just knock me down like this... I have been a meany lately - a crier, which is not usual - short with people...sensitive...I feel sorry, but I can't help it. I want this little face home.. I want to hold him tight...hearing people say that they don't miss the little years with their kids, that they don't want to go back...I would give anything to hear his cries and be able to help him...hearing people say that it is good that I am missing the "crying and no sleeping" months...like this is a comfort...I know that this is well meaning, but I do not feel thankful to miss that...I feel so sorry for Mario, that he will be ripped from his foster mom and brought here where he does not know anyone... that will be so scary...there was this event last night, and this woman had her baby there, about 6 months old, all bundled up like a little burrito...I wanted to hold the baby so badly, but did not know the woman...I just stared at her...she probably thinks I am a psycho... I suppose adoption waiting makes us all a bit psycho - lol! Sorry to bum you all out.. bad week.. maybe new photos will cheer me at the end of the month...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Posts
7 comments:
Hi Jill...
I am so sad that you are so sad - and I can understand why. I wish I could do something, and I'm so sorry that I can't. Please know that I am praying for you to be encouraged and strengthened. I miss you and love you!
Keri
Thinking of you all and keep you and Mario in our prayers. I am so sorry for this time period. Please know we care.
Robin
I asked your mama today to give you a big hug from me. I wish I could do more but I will keep praying and hope that time flies and things work out just right. You and Mo have missed out on a little bit of bonding time, there's no doubt about it. But that just means you'll have to squeeze extra love into all of your days to come. Somehow, I don't think that will be a problem for y'all!
Bee
Hey Jill ~ believe me I know how you feel! We made the leap of faith to adopt our baby girl from Guatemala. We will likely be taking a trip to see her in October or September. As much as I hate to fly I need to learn to like it!!! Talk to you soon!
Dearest Jill - I'm so sorry for the huge ache in your heart. It truly pains me to read of your yearning for your darling lil guy.
May it help you to know that I was almost 9 months old when I was adopted by my parents. I cannot imagine a stronger bond between parents and child.
Of course, I have no memory of those first 8 1/2 months... I celebrate two birthdays... March 13th and November 4th - the day my life began.
I am grateful that there was a person and/or persons who took care of me those first months.... But truly, my life, as I know it, began that miraculous November day.
Continuing to send warm and loving hugs your way.... and praying for your beautiful family and lil Mario.
janice
Happy 6 Months Mario!!
I hope and pray you are home with Mommy and Daddy real soon.
Gail
I am right there with ya. For a minute I thought maybe I was reading something I wrote myself. Marcus has been home nearly 11 months now. I dont remember the wait now. On the other hand, my heart is just ripped wide open waiting for William to come home.
Post a Comment